You don´t know what you don´t know
As the light is getting stronger, the things hidden in the dark show up. A lot of people make these experiences at the moment, where the unknown becomes known. It shows up, cause we are now ready to face it, transmute it…and change whatever is needed to be changed.
I´ve experienced with others and myself, that things that are unknown have an impact on the own biography and stop our evolvement. In my own family something my grandfather once had done and that burdened him with a deep feeling of guilt has had an impact of sabotage on his own life and the generations to come.
We have to make the unknown known to stop the destructive repetitions. Cause they occur, no matter if we know about the cause or not. I didn´t think that there might be much unknown stuff in my own case. I have memories from really early childhood, from other lifetimes and even remember how I once chose to go to earth and why.
But there had been difficulties still showing up, that really didn´t make sense to me, especially when it came to relationships of any kinds. I attracted psychopaths. Although I seemed to have made all my homework, healed issues of abandonment, people-pleasing and whatever may have caused it, one really strange experience occured last year again. Just that I didn´t knew I had attracted distortion again, cause he´s a “spiritual” guy and everyone thinks him to be just wonderful. I realized one could really wonder what he was ful(l) with. It took me a long time and some hints from the lightforces and friends (as I couldn´t understand his mindset) to realize what had been hiding in the dark. After finding out I had a serious talk with my Higher Self, saying “Enough! I deserve better! Stop it!” It didn´t make sense to me. So, I´ve been shown what has caused my attraction of distorted, abusive people: Childhood memories showed up…out of the blue and really scarry, distorted and traumatic.
Our subconscious knows it all. We are on an energetic level like a computer, that is running a programm. And there might be a virus in our system, causing us serious harm. We have to look at it and transmute it, to change our energetic setup. We are all doing it at the moment, on a personal and collective level. Seems to be really hard sometimes, I´m the last one that would say that it is easy. But the future can not change, when we are not doing the work in the now.
One thing that I realized is, that the silencing has been one of the worst things about my own abuse and for many others. The people around, pretending to see nothing, just to keep their comfortable lifes or even benefit somehow. People that even blame the ones that would need support, care and their back up. Scapegoating, to not take responsibility for the own dark feelings, like guilt, fear, shame. And perpetrators, trying to “use” the situation to cause even more harm. The affected people are left alone and after a while stop to even ask for help. I´ve been talking with a woman of a help-organisation yesterday and she agreed it is the worst about all of it. So I chose to go out and write about it. I´ve been talking with the woman from the help-organisation about this decision of mine, also. She said, that it could indeed help myself, help others and is needed in society. But of course, when we expose ourselves we might be targeted also. But finally I decided: “I´ve been targeted so often anyway. This planet isn´t safe until the last child may sleep safe in his own bed, without experiencing rape or other forms of violence. I didn´t come to earth to be safe, I came to be a lighthouse, nothing less.” And while I type these words, Bob Marley starts to sing in my mind: “Get up, stand up.” So thank you for the heavenly support, brother of the light.
I have created a blog, that is in german, but has a translation button at the end of the page. If you are interested, just klick on the Link: https://ichsein.soulutions.one/. The topic is abuse, its effects in my life and my path of healing. I know, that there will be people, that will dislike it, but I´ve gotta be myself and do not need anyones approval. Their judgement doesn´t say who I am, but who they choose to be. I have nothing to hide and nothing to fear, but secrets and darkness itself – and I don´t! They cannot exist where light and truth have taken reins.